Aim: The aim of this paper is to illuminate meanings of becoming dependent on home mechanical ventilator treatment.
Background: People suffering from chronic alveolar hypoventilation and requiring home mechanical ventilation represent a small but increasing group in society, and are some of the most vulnerable individuals with chronic disabilities.
Method: Thirteen people about to begin ventilator treatment at home were interviewed. Data were tape-recorded and analysed according to a phenomenological-hermeneutic method.
Findings: Findings revealed two contrasting meanings of being in the process of becoming dependent on a ventilator, interpreted as getting breath or holding breath. This interpretation is presented in two composite stories.
Conclusions: The findings imply possibilities and deficiencies in meeting patients' existential needs, such as helping them to breathe spiritually by supporting them as they get their breath after such a life-changing event as becoming dependent on a ventilator.